Hiiya!
Well! no Surprise! It’s a long time since i last blog.
I should really put to heart to blog more often! Reflection is good for the soul. Hahaha…now…where did I hear that from? True or not?
I won’t say things have improved from the last time I blogged. Personally, I think there is much to work on! I’m having fun. My first big work have arrive and I’m really eager to do well. I know God place me here to settle a really important life skill. Administration and Details. Wait…that’s two. Yeap. So here I am! Cracking my head learning and doing! I do hope to do well! Wait…I have to do well. A lot is at stake. Hahaha
Anyway, today I want to talk about a really interesting topic that popped out recently….or at least I was chatting about it with God.
It’s about Jonathan Wong. Or I think that is his name. Well….a little about what happened to this young man. He’s an aspiring young man. Going on a scholarship. His friends in school describe him as loud and arrogant. His church mate describes him as one who knows the word of God really well. He seems like an okay young man until he was caught possessing child pornography.
He appeared on the news. His crime declared to the world and in church last Sunday, we talked about him during our session on sexual sins.
Now here’s the thing. Although not everybody violently accused him of being a monster during the session, but a few accusation are made. Two of them happen to caught my attention.
1) He reads a lot of the bible but yet do not know the bible. (Head knowledge)
2) He is a sunday Christian.
I find these accusations very unfair. Come on. Do we even know him personally and intimately? How then can we find base to make such accusations? Do you know his walk with his God. If we do not know how then can we make such judgement? Furthermore. . . He memories the scriptures. . . do you even read your bible? Do you not too have your dark secrets? Or are you blind to them?
What if, What if ….this young man, knows that he has a problem with pornography. All this while, he’s been doing what he can to fight it. He reads the bible. He fervently memories the scriptures. He recites it each day, reads the word of God religiously and prayed desperately for God to remove the wicked sin from his mind and heart. While doing it he won some battles and lost some. People started to see him as a true christian… just as how they view anyone who knows a bit of the bible. Some even see him as proud because of the line he set between right and wrong. However what everybody cannot see is the corruption that had already taken root. What people cannot see is that he fights a losing battle. A losing battle that he had fought alone. Why? Because he feel that if he told anyone, he will be condemned and people will declare it out. Till that fateful day when everything seems to be alright till he was caught …with child pornography and…his world crashed.
Would you as brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers condemned him then? Condemned a fallen sibling. He’s dirty. How can he do such a wicked thing? Child pornography? Don’t he know how those people got those pictures? How those children gets taken advantaged of? their lives destroyed? How can he? That’s beyond human.
Or will you grieve at your failure to be a family in Christ. That you fail to know or probably choose to ignore that he is a brother in Christ and am susceptible to something very rampant among young males today. Pornography. That you had done absolutely nothing and may have even paved a little to aid his downfall while he fought the battle alone. NOW we stand as judges and we condemn him as someone we want little to do with. Someone best kept far away. We’ll still love him of course. He’s a church member. But we’ll love him from a distance…and we’ll pray for him….after we pray about what we want and….if we remember.
You see…the bible says… Do to others as you would have them do to you. If we have a problem naturally….we would want help and we would appreciate if no one adds to our burden. If we had loved each other in church, we would not only watch what we do, say or wear, we would also take active steps to look out for one another. However….most of the time… i believe we are stuck at step one. After all, we have the right to do anything we like, say anything we like and wear anything we like. Even if the bible did specifically mention how we should behave, talk and dress, it’s probably not applicable today. or at least I don’t want it to be applicable. It’s so restraining.
Anyway, my quiet time today was about sacrifice.
Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.
John 12:24-25
It made me think about a memory verse I had. it goes something like….greater love has no man than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.
If we love, we will sacrifice our rights, comfort or what is deemed as life so that…we will build each other up. And…it is not easy. Not easy at all.
Well…that’s for my walk in the rain thoughts…
Back to me…. Things are not really at it’s best right now. Gonna have to go back to camp on Christmas. Don’t really fancy it but someone have to take it. Well…that’s the least of my worries. Dad attempted to borrow money from me recently. That’s disturbing. Is he not doing well? Think about that brings me to a certain phrase my mom once told me. “Your(me) job is to study and do well, our(my parents) job is to work hard and ensure that you have money to eat and study. “…..Hey mom….I’ve done my job. I might not be the best, but I did get 3.61 for my GPA and honor rolls. What have your side done? You ran from home, dad and you does not seems to be able to support bro and me any more. I’ve not asked of you yet. I’m still pretending that everything is ok and that nothing bad or wrong has happened. But don’t you think you all have gone too far?
When I looked at you guys, i don’t really feel secure about my future…will I make the same mistakes? I realized too that I no longer have a pillar to lean on. You won’t be able to support me through university. Although you are nagging at me to apply for university. Some family expert once spoke on a seminar. . . a child from a dysfunctional family will most likely produce a dysfunctional family……Hmmm….no…. I will not end up like you guys did. I will not and must not. I will build a strong and happy family and I’ll prove that guy wrong. God help me.
Anyways…I think I’ll stop here. Enough rambling. I must renew my fights and focus. Next Bad Boys Band, I must bring good news.
Time to drop distractions. Can’t let anything bring me down now.
….Oh….about Johnathan…. I believe God loves him and loves him still. Loves him enough to know what he has done recently and still die for him on the cross.
