It’s a long time since I have posted. Life had been exciting. A roller coaster. There are many treasured times which I now crave to have more and also….unfortunately many things I wished I didn’t have to face.
Congratulations to myself. I am now a commissioned officer of the singapore armed forces. Am posted to 21 SA as the DY S1. Commissioning was great joy. Was really happy that Desmond came. Was really sad that my fyp mates were unable to make. There was a deep regret and a wish that I should have asked another group of people to come…people I know who are more likely to come…But it is a one time event. A mar is a mar forever…in that picture. Still, it’s a day to be proud of. An Achievement. For braving through the fires of OCS, heart rending moments with her and some irritating fellow cadets out to make life miserable. Still…I want to thank God and many dear brothers and sisters that gave me much comfort throughout the course itself.
Some are the very same people who supported me through BMT.Not according to Merit…
1) Desmond Tan
2) Weisheng Guan
3) Auntie Irene
4) Bernice Cheng
5) Audrey Lian
6) Tommy
7) Boon Siong
8) Paul Yong
9) Wong Peng Soon
10) Dons Joshua
11) Ken
12) Hazel Nut
13) Auntie Lynette
14) Solomon Lee
Thank you all for your words of comfort and encouragement in times of trials.
Currently enjoying life in my new unit. Work is new and tough but hey! I’m ready to tackle em!
Yesterday’s Children’s day. Happen to have leave! Sweet…. Went to the Orphanage with Jude. A Primary School girls convent. It is pretty sweet. They had a carnival and a surprise visit by their old time volunteer JUDE! HAhaha….He is called kor kor Jude. Being there made me forget how ugly the world…life….my life is . The simple joy and peace is…so touching that i wanted to break down and cry.
So many things cross my mind. How are all these young people fare in the future? Who will they grow up into? It made me remember what a pessimist I was or am. Seriously…I’m not really different from the people I help. I have problems too. Just that they had someone to whine to and I don’t and they can solve theirs by not being so childish or stupid while mine can’t.
The kids were friendly and soon I join in the fray! The Carnival was ingeniously manned by half of them in the first round and switched over at the second round. Incentives were give for them to wash their cups and to do good things. Hahaha..the orphanage is great. Then there’s this sweet little girl call Ee Shuen. Gave me a grasshopper as a souvenir to to bring home. Hahaha…took me to tour the place too! I had so much fun! We spend quite alot of time there…initially I was worried that there may be nothing to do there…especially when I had from Jude that it was an all girls orphanage. There was one boy thought. hahaha…poor boy.
After that, Jude and I rushed down to HSA to donate blood. It’s been a long time since I had donated blood. I’M BACK TO SQUARE ONE!! I’m terrified again!!! Same old fear crept in but im glad that this time round I had a friend with me. It used to be very lonely fighting this alone. I felt as if everyone left me to die. Hahaha…This time there is Jude. He’s not afraid but having someone to talk to is great. Further more I had a pretty nurse who made blood donating alot easier. I believe that I did not drink enough water and that cause my veins to collapse. Hahaha. So blood flow was slow…and this is the irritating thing. Now, the blood donation system has an alarm that beeps if your blood flow is slow or if you took more than 10 minutes to donate! SUPER ANNOYING!! hahahaa. Anyways the Nurse was great! Keeping me company and massaging my hand to make the blood flow. LOL.
Parted ways with Jude thereafter a meal. OH! We met a 62 year old lady! She needed help! So we help her to the bus stop. Then she shared the Gospel to use and pray with us. That’s sweet. Well…Jude! May you see the Truth one day =].
Met Winnie after that. Traveled to Sembawang where she gave tuition to her kid and I explore the hand phone shop. MANAGE TO CONTACT DON !! HAhaha..We are going to buy new phones together in Dec=] Long time never see him le =]!! check a little with Denan and I think I know what phone I want le =]
After that, Travel with Winnie Back…parted ways at Dhoby Ghaut. She went home and I went to Catch the Campus Crusaders….How I missed them… ate at Ash Rock Cafe! Shared our lives in Swensen.I missed the old days! Pray for the TRP Ministry! God blessed em! That through them lives will be touched. Movements everywhere so that everyone knows someone who truely knows CHRIST!
Yeahh….Now…Time to pour out some pain.Then …again maybe not…but there is this person I want to beat to pulp. Seriously Sometimes I wished it had never started…all the problems and all… I feel so much I giving up. It don’t seem worth it to fight it at all….Especially when you are fighting alone…when 2 persons are suppose to fight…It’s really depressing…..Furthermore… One scary thing thing I learn about myself. I always want more and better….one good thing I learn about myself…I can be faithful and choose to love despite of that. I’m proud of myself =]
Still…Today…Will be tough. BUT I’ll make it a good day. Time for QT!
